Sorry I've not written for a while. I couldn't face it after losing Sammy - he was by my side for 13 years, from when I was unemployed, through my first job, up to finding my feet as a programmer and getting my career going. He was there when I went through break-ups, there when I came out as a lesbian, there when I met Tracy, when we fell in love. He was there when we moved in together and there when we bought our first house. Through it all he was always available for cuddles or play and had an unerring ability to tell when you needed cheering up. He was one in a million.
Sadly, just as I thought I was getting over his loss, we lost a close human friend, another unique and wonderful personality lost to us, but this time overnight - there was no warning, no sense of anything wrong, she just went, suddenly, leaving a huge hole that simply can't be filled. I'm grateful that it was relatively quick, but I'm still angry that someone who had just found happiness and was busy making plans for herself and her family should be taken away when evil people out there flourish and live long lives.
Anyway, I know it sounds like I'm wallowing in grief, but actually I'm not. One advantage of having slightly mediumistic tendencies is that you can feel the presence of people and animals who have passed into the spirit world, so that although it's hard to not be able to physically touch them, or to hear their voices clearly, you can still communicate in a way. Sammy cat was there at our friend's funeral, and they will both be at our handfasting in July, I'm sure of it.
Meanwhile, life goes on. We still have a handfasting (four months to go!) and civil partnership to plan, jobs to do, three remaining pets to care for and friends and family to see. Tracy has graduated as a Shiatsu practitioner so that will hopefully pick up this year, I've had the honour of being promoted to a moderator on the D For Dog forums - which are going from strength to strength - , Tracy and I have started going to Yin Yoga, and Mollie and I have just started agility classes. Somewhere along the line we also seriously need to get some DIY done around the house...
The agility classes will be mentioned on Mollie's blog, I'll be back with updates of the rest of my incredibly mundane life later! =)
3 comments:
Hi Em, sorry about your two losses of loved ones. It would be nice if there were wise words that could take away the pain but there aren't. We have to suffer it through with a little help from our friends.
Sammy was your special cat. I too had a special cat and was devastated when she died, so I know something of what it is like. I still love and miss her and hope I always will.
Sudden death adds shock to pain and the more we love someone, the more their absence hurts. I hope you find comfort in your love and your memories.
Here's hoping you are soon blessed with happier times.
so sorry to hear about your recent times Em. Sudden death is so difficult to come to terms with isnt it? But it sounds like ou are on the up a d good for yuo. Take care and enjoy the other cats adn Mollie!
Sorry to hear about your friend hun, as has been mentioned in other comments shock can add to the grief. Lots of stuff going on and coming up by the sounds of it! Exciting times xx
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